I need help. Just read this. I need to tell you.
Posted By: NeedSomeone2Listen on 2008-03-10
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I am tired of my life and sometimes get upset that I was ever born. The more I try to do something good for myself the worse I seem to do. The worse and worse I get the more depressed I become. The more depressed I am the more I wish I didn't exist.
I have absolutely no friends, no job and about $8 to my name. I'm hoping to find a buyer for an old paint sprayer I have to pay my electric this month. I have taught myself to eat just one small meal per day to cut back on how much I have to spend on groceries. I live in the dark because I'm afraid of making my electric bill higher. I have wanted to write something like this for a long time because I have nobody to tell it to, but I have been unable to gather the energy to do it until just now.
I made a 1310 on my SAT without studying and forgetting to bring a calculator. I was accepted to one of the state’s most exclusive private universities (I chose not to go) although I never really tried in high school. In working for other people, I was the youngest Customer Service Manager ever at the Wal-Mart I worked at when I was 17. I used to provide telephone tech support for Dell computers and was always one of the top 3 performers week after week out of a total 250 that worked there. I also was an electricians assistant, firefighter/EMT, surgical aide, autopsy assistant, office manager for a 3 physician practice, concrete pumper and flooring installer. On my own, I have owned at 6 businesses and 2 corporations including medical transcription, stock trading and fully organizing, developing, publishing and distributing a classifieds newspaper from offset printers to 12,000 people. I have owned hundreds of domain names and built approximately 100 totally unique websites.
I have visited 3 countries. I have climbed 21,000ft. volcanoes, slept in the Amazon rainforest and learned 3 languages: English, Spanish and American Sign Language. I was married for 5 years and am now awaiting a divorce after my wife and I both cheated on each other because we were both so unhappy with our marriage.
I am 25 years old.
I have always been the "responsible, grown-up young person". When I talk to my family about being depressed, I get told to "lighten up" or told "you're crazy" in a sarcastic way. When I was younger I used to cut my arms just to watch them bleed. I now live in a garage apartment that I have become emotionally attached to. I am afraid of losing it- it's like my best friend. And knowing that each month I don't know how I'm going to pay my $385/month rent really really scares me- not of being homeless, I don't mind that- I'm scared of losing my best friend.
I have never had any close friends on a long term basis. Right now I have none. I always just wanted someone to talk to and because I have nobody, I am left to writing this. I relate better to females and would rather spend time with a female friend than a male friend that I liked equally. I have started drinking every day- not to the point of getting drunk- but every day nonetheless. That makes me scared because my real dad is an alcoholic, his dad was an alcoholic for 20+ years as well as his mother.
I have become so depressed that everything is a chore- typing this is difficult. I used to take 2 showers every day. Now, I only shower if I have to go somewhere which is usually once every 3 days or so. The rest of the time I stay in my apartment with blankets covering all the windows. Taking the trash out has become such a chore that I have 3 weeks of trash piling up but it seems like its only been there for 3 days. I can't go to a doctor to try to get medication because I can't pay for one. I have not been to a doctor in 11 years simply because I can not afford it.
I can't work for people- like a company. I can only work for myself. I get tired quickly and I can't focus on one thing for too long. Besides that, I always seem to learn all there is about a certain "position" and either get bored and have to quit or get pressured to quit because I'm the only one around who wants to do things right and that means more work for the slackers I work with. I think that explains why I've had so many jobs.
I come up with what I think are great ideas for websites. I buy the domain name and usually have the site done in a day to a week. I have multiple websites ranking in first position in Google because I am also excellent with search engine optimization. I am fluent in four different Internet programming languages: HTML, JAVASCRIPT, CGI/PERL and PHP. I designed a fully HIPAA compliant method of uploading and downloading files, so I created a website for me to offer my medical transcription services last year. Because I still have not received my first client (and all I really need is just one), I recently started offering search engine optimization services to people as a means for income. I really enjoy it and I am excellent at it. On the side, I have also designed about 10 "automated" websites that earn commission through affiliate ads and products. In the last three months, I have received 115,000 unique visitors to my websites, received thousands of affiliate ad clicks/referrals and have made a total online income of $12.81. The only way I slip by with my rent money the day before its due is by selling things I own, but I'm running out of things quickly.
I don't know what it is about me. I can't seem to make any money. There are a ton of other people out there who know nothing about building websites, Internet marketing, etc. and make a few hundred to a few thousand dollars per month online! I do the same thing and earn nothing. I build websites, try to get them to work for me and don't make a penny. I sell the website for like $25 because I need the money and the new owner starts making money from it. I only have a need to make $900 per month. That pays all of my bills and groceries. Anything over $900 is just extra I can save for a rainy day. I don't know anyone whose needs are so low and I STILL can't seem to get by even though I sit online for literally 18 hours a day 7 days a week.
I'm about to give up on everything because giving up is easier- you don't have to deal with the disappointment of failure. I'm just tired of everything. I don't want to be here. I wish I had some way to pay my bills then I could just sit in my apartment and be left alone- that's all I want. Sometimes I wish I could get professional help but then I would have to find a way to pay for a doctor, which is impossible anyway. I would have to tell someone and it scares me that someone would think I'm a "risk to myself or others" and take me away from here- my apartment, my best friend.
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In 12 years of MT'ing I've never re-read an entire chart. Edit/read as I type. nm
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Yes, I read your post, and I just re-read it, and I've copied and pasted for you in case
you've forgotten your own words! Your post above is 100% different "flavor" to it, now all positive and cheery! Your first post was 100% doom and gloom every which way, including "raining on your parade", and "if you want to go forward"...God, sounds like she's talking about jumping into oncoming traffic! Here is your quote:
My first boss (the one who hired me as a new grad) gave me some words of wisdom that I haven't forgotten. She said that transcribing at home with small children NEVER works under any circumstance. Either the work will suffer or the parenting will suffer.
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How can the word "NEVER" in caps be interpreted in any positive way? You took about 8 paragraphs to cover every aspect and completely dash this poor woman's dream. I'm not blind, I'm not talking about day care at all, I'm talking about the total negativity of your original post! You know exactly what I'm talking about, cause you added some sugar to your second version! And that's much nicer than the first!
Oh I've read that site and continue to read it...sm
I agree...much motivation there. I have tried to quit numerous times in the past and did successfully quit when I was pregnant for the first time many years ago but I have never managed to summon up the strength or resolve to stay quit. Thus the "need" for a financial investment in my efforts. It somehow makes it more motivational to know that I have $$$ invested in this effort over and above the $$$ saved on cigarettes.
Who had time to read?LOL I only get a chance to read This Old House once in a while. (nm)
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I didn't read the other posts but just read this
My daughter got pregnant at 17, said she wanted an abortion but BF didn't. I have a wonderful 2-1/2 yo grand daughter that I don't think I could live without...and now, guess what? I don't. I have custody of her. She was dropped off on my door, I got court ordered temporary custody and final custody hearing in a month.
I'm single with no family support. I had just taken a new MT job one month before this happened and they have been wonderful during my adjusting to being a mom again and I hope I can resume a normal schedule by next week.
I'm passing no moral judgments or giving moral advice. The situation is what it is. My prayers are with everyone involved.
Definitely an eye-opening read. Having my teens read it, too. nm
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Yes she did. Read over and over.
Go have dinner and read again. What's your battle or issue with poster. It's an OPINION!
Read a few more
of the posts from ALS. I think that this is the poster who is trying to be "smart" in the way that you are referring to in your post.
I can read 2
She never did provide a reference for crepitants. This is because she cannot. It is not a word.
Please read - sm
If you are the transcription supervisor I would strongly advise you to please review the reports carefully - do this around the end of the first month or second month. The reason I say this is because for the first few weeks an outsourcing company will QA just about every report so that it looks great, gains the confidence of the client, etc. I have worked with many, many hospitals as a consultant and notice this to be the pattern.
After you have found the multiple mistakes, bring these up to the administration and ask to have a deduction from the bill.
I have had to point out to a few hospitals that use the overseas transcription that they are putting the doctors at malpractice risk. One hospital even ended up paying the outsource company $262 for the month because they had so many mistakes in the transcription and each line that had an error was deducted from their original bill. You can bet that company did a turnaround the following month with nearly no errors. I'm not afraid to tell you the company - CBay.
You need to read up on how (sm)
perverts select their victims. They don't just assault randomly unless they are planning to kill you afterward. They specifically target those who they think will not stand up for themselves or children who have nobody to stand up for them! Your pappy there has had permission from both his wives to assault others under their roof and he is going to get worse if you don't stop him now. He's not senile, he's not demented, he is a disgusting pervert who has been molesting children his entire life! No "mother" would allow this sort of thing to happen to their child, and it doesn't matter if you are 5 or 55! Do you REALLY believe that his own children were not molested? The only reason his daughter didn't admit it to you is because she'd have to tell you the gory details and didn't want to have to go there, much like you don't want to tell your family something he SAID to you. I guess if you're that worried about what your "mother" will think, then go ahead and get felt up for the rest of your life, but I sure hope you have the good sense to NEVER take your children over there!
You only read what you want to..
I don't advocate welfare for life no questions asked, but geez, louise,this is America, the richest country in the world and we have children who go to bed hungry!!!!
You need to re-read
Listen up! What part of re-read the darn posts didn't YOU understand?
People have been complaining on her for weeks about "oh I hate having so many accounts..." or "I have too many accounts and can't remember each profile" or "I already have 6 accounts and I don't want anymore"
Take off your bifocals, clean the slober off your monitor, and scoot your big old butt close to the screen and re-read the posts from several days ago!
Read this
Her uncle ron is your husband - get a grip on life!
from what I read
it is fine to wear black. I checked it out on the net. During my wedding, there were a couple of women wearing black. I also attended a wedding where the bridesmaids were wearing black.
You might want to read the (sm)
article/link that someone just posted on the main board.
Good luck, whatever you do! 
HELP! Where did I read this? (sm)
JAAMT or Plexus or other???  It was an article about AAMT's position in dropping the possesive form of an eponym and how other organizations were following suit (like AMA). In other words, not to type Alzheimer's disease or Parkinson's disease, but Alzheimer disease and Parkinson disease. I meant to copy this to have it readily available (doctors don't seem to have read this explanation yet). Thanks!
See, the way I read that was...SM
The poster was saying "Hey, better to have an occasional drink than to wind up on antidepressants" - which, even when taken EXACTLY as prescribed, can really mess some people up.
I have never taken a job from there, but I just want to read it to keep -
ahead of what is out there and who is looking for what as far as jobs. What I did notice though, and I absolutely love that they did this, is that you cannot see what anyone else has bid. you used to see what everyone was bidding and it got to a point where people were putting down that they would do it for free just for the job and experience!! C'mon. How fair is that.
I agree with you on paying - I don't want to pay Guru a part of my check, that I am already under bidding on, just because the job was posted there.
read below
It means intake and output and you don't put an apostrophe because that makes it possessive. You also don't use one for words like TMs and so on.
Not just re-read but...
That's called re-casting the sentence and would not be permitted with TRUE verbatim transcription. My dream is to one day type EVERYTHING just as they say it, including "BEEEEEEEELCH", or 'Hi Joe, how's the golf came?" etc.
Do they like to read?
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Please read
That may be true, but again, please don't let a bad reputation of one company put you in a negative mindset of the entire Network Marketing Industry. It's the same with medical transcription. If you look at these boards, you'll find that there are some companies with very bad reputations, and yet there are some very good ones out there.
I have and am doing it.....please read
I've been in this industry for several years.....and I never said that ANYONE should take my advice, I was simply giving my opinion and having a conversation. If Network Marketing is not your cup of tea, then that's cool. But I along with several other people I am associated with do make a nice living at it. Please understand, I am NOT defending those companies that truly are scams or the ones that make you spend lots of money before you even see a dime. I was just saying that not all companies are bad.....and that personal development is a good thing to do for yourself.....nothing more and nothing less. Have a blessed week!!
If you would read the
She says that she should be paid the extra that the MTSO is pocketing...what do you think that means?
Why do you read it then?
There is no need to be nasty.
What I have read..
From a government site, said that with the growing population and the expansion of new hospitals and medical facilities, the need for the medical Transcriptionist will increase. There are many people on here who will say, don't do it, and we hate our jobs, but I don't think there are many jobs where you can sit at home and do your work. You save on gas, clothing, food, day care, etc. In my opinion, it will be here for a while. Even if there are voice recognition programs, there will be someone who will have to edit those files because of grammar, ESL doctors, and just doctors who cannot speak.
There is also a concern for outsourcing out of the U.S. I do not think that is a problem. I know a few doctors who went with an India service and came back pretty quick. I doubt the need for the MT will reduce in the future. This is my opinion from what I have read.
You need to read this...................
Please be aware that if you are working in the evenings doing MT, and another agent calls you and says he/she has a contract on your listing, you WILL have to drop what you're doing MT wise and go; to not do so would mean you could (most probably) miss out on a sale, which you certainly don't want to do after having put all your heart, soul, and $$$ on the line.
Also know there are time constraints involved in all contracts,and they will not go according to YOUR schedule.
Please be aware that if a seller calls you and says he/she wants you to list their home - please come over at 7:30 p.m. - you WILL have to drop what you're doing MT wise and go; to not do so would be to risk the seller listing their home with another agent. In addition, you'll also have to spend time preparing for the listing meeting before you arrive there.
Also be aware that the majority of home buyers work during the day, so the busiest time of day to go out looking at homes with buyers is naturally when they are not working; i.e., evenings and weekends. If you are summoned to take buyers out looking at homes at that time, you WILL have to drop what you're doing MT wise and go; otherwise, there are thousands of other agents out there who are more than willing to drop what they're doing to show homes and make a possible sale.
You will find that Buyers do NOT wait. Real estate agents are considered a dime a dozen as there are so many of them out there who are willing to show homes at 2:00 a.m. if need be. Buyers want to see homes when they want to see homes.
I'm not trying to be snitty here, but I think you have an unrealistic view of making money in real estate. If you think you can work real estate during the day and that's it, you are going to be sadly surprised.
There's a lot of homework that goes into real estate and a lot of time involved in all aspects of real estate that go with it.
If you are planning on making any money in this whatsoever, daytime hours only won't cut it, and you will soon find that all you're doing is spending a lot of money, spinning your wheels, getting frustrated, and going absolutely no where.
Trust me when I tell you to be successful in real estate, you must give blood; this includes in the form of your energy, time spent, knowledge, competiting with other agents who would slit their own mother's throat to make a sale, and a multitude of other things that I don't have time - or the room here - to tell you.
Tread carefully into your new venture and realize there's no job out there that's easy, and least of all real estate. It's one of the hardest fields, but I know most folks think's its so simple - sorta like the little gal with a typewriter/computer who watches ER and, therefore, thinks she can be successful in starting a medical transcription business or SC'g for a service.
Please read.
I say this because I care about each and every one of the "good guys" out there, so please try to read this with an open mind and accept that this is what I believe to be true.
We aren't living in Little House on the Prarie anymore. We are living in times where all of us are at risk from those who wish us harm. If that means that we give up a few of our "rights," well, so be it. Blame the bad guys, not the government.
The prarie folk probably felt the same way some do now when the goverment began to intervene with taxes, telling them where to bury their dead, and putting them in jail for murder, while at the same time providing health care, food, and housing, when needed. Big Bad Government, right?
As parents, it is our job to keep our children from harming themselves and others, teaching them right from wrong, correct? Ponder the measures you'd have to take if you had millions of children, and you needed to try to maintain world peace at the same time. It's a no-win situation, isn't it? But you'd have to try. It's your job as a parent. Just like with kids, someone's not going to be happy about the rules.
It's not about us, any of us, unless, of course, someone is planning to bomb a building, or are sending pictures of their neighbor's naked child out on the internet, or are planning to put sarin in the neighbor kid's backpack for Show and Tell at school. Oh, yes! I can hear those people screaming "No, no George W! Keep out! It's wrong...and...and...and, I have RIGHTS!"
However, I can also hear people screaming at George W "WHY DIDN'T YOU DO SOMETHING?!" when the next tall building falls with their loved one on the 121st floor. It's not about us, any of us...until it truly IS about us and how much we hurt. Then no is at fault but the government, Big Brother, right? How many people would say "I wish I would have listened, and trusted them to do their job."
Me? I say "Welcome, take a look around, and would you like a cup of tea while you are here? How can I help?"
I have friends who work in the Pentagon and with the Joint Chiefs of Staff, and the information they elude to (never direct facts, big no-no) tells me that we DO need to be watched, and measures MUST be taken NOW to try to outfox the foxes. After all, the foxes look and smell just like us. There's so much most of us don't know. Some people do know, and some know enough to help them understand the ugly truth--it's not Disneyland out there any more, folks. When my friends call me and say "don't go there," I listen without question. Why? Becuase they know things I don't, and they care about me.
It's a black world out there and it's getting blacker by the day. Each of us has to at least try to trust the guys who are on our side and let them try to do their job.
Being able to accept that the government might have to take these steps to protect us means that I don't have to worry about my "rights," because I know I'm living up to the responsibilties that go along with it. And I don't have anything to hide.
Hopefully our grandchildren will have a better, safer world in which to raise their children. But the first steps toward that need to be taken today.
Don't believe everything you read
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/U.S._Presidents_IQ_hoax
READ - EVERYONE
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The fact is everyone's opinion of abusive or hateful is different. We try to moderate as little as possible. I am not the board police or kindergarten cop. Neither am I on this board 24/7 trying to watch for every single offender in order to slap them on the wrist and shake my finger in their face and make them play nice.
Simply don't read posts that are offensive to you. If there is swearing, hate speech, vulgar language, threats, by all means report those posts. However, please consider that this is a public forum and that there simply has to be some tolerance here.
No one is forced to post nor read. Everyone should look for the posts that are of interest to them. Yes, it would be nice if all posters were mature in their discussion; however, they are not.
If anyone needs or wants to discuss this policy, please do e-mail me.
Goldbird
You need to read this.....
My dear, when/if the time comes we stop to care about our fellow man, the whole world will go straight down the loo. Pretty much the direction it's going now because no one seems to care. It's all based on the almighty dollar. To that I say "God help us all!" and to your noncaring, flippant attitude, I say, "God help you and grant you some grace and serenity."
I read somewhere that,
that means you were in a state of total concentration. Just like when you are driving and you don't remember stopping at that stop sign two blocks back. I'm 31 and I'd rather believe that I was in deep concentration than to think I'm losing it already. How 'bout you? LOL ![Roll](http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_21.gif")
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Please read this....
It is my opinion that before you up and sell your home and move away for this job, you need to have an iron-clad contract - a contract that you have YOUR attorney review and okay. Please consider this for your benefit!
I would not read too much into it
As I have a 4-yo little girl myself, I would not read too much into what the teacher is saying...kids grow in their own ways and the cope with things differently than we do...I would just try to help her as much as you can with learning her letters..but let her play with her toys and dolls. We all need to be children, and frankly, I think that they put so much pressure on kids these days to "excel" that we are taking away what it really important, our imagination. I think your little girl is fine...and frankly, if the teacher cannot keep from writing negative letters to you, I would see about moving her out of the preschool. My child attends a daycare and is about to start school in the fall, and she is the happiest she has ever been and they basically let her "be a kid" because for the next 14 years of her life she is going to have to be "an adult." Good luck!
I read over them all
What's the name of the program that will take the place of the C-phone?
Do You Believe Everything You Read
Please read......
I know names are not supposed to be mentioned here, but I will only give a first name and last initial. I'm from the Chicagoland area and I used to work for a small company called Rx Transcriptions. It was run by two ladies. I've lost contact with her and would like to find her, she was a great supervisor and paid me well and treated me good. She was a good friend. I was wondering if anyone on this board has ever heard of that company or this person. MODERATOR...please don't delete this post or ban me as this is NOT for malicious purposes. I am really trying to find to find this person so I can reunite with her....Thanks.
I ALSO READ..sm
that perimenopause can cause tingling sensations in your face. Has anyone had this happen? I've been getting this on and off for about 6 months (40 yrs old), and now I believe I'm having occasional hot flashes, but only at night. Sigh--whatta mess! BTW, my sister is only 43 and she is going through menopause already, so I'm thinking it may come a bit early in my family!
HA! I just read this. I am doing the same.....
....with my daughter in September when she turns 13. I can't wait! 
I just read their ad....sm
I bet it is for that one account that is primarily oncology that ALWAYS has lots of jobs available. The ad did say ESL and oncology. I heard that was a VERY hard account. So now I don't think I will be too worried. Let's hope it is just for that one account...it does need help!
I JUST READ THEIR AD
Actually, they are hiring for the oncology account you mentioned..which by the way..is a great account...not difficult...I belive the ESL is for another account that is rather hard....(from horse's mouth)..
I read...
only things that have to do with investments and the NYSE.
that's not what I was asking at all. You read more into it than was there. sm
I already have it wrote out. I am just wanting to look at some formats of flyers, i.e., too much color, too much info at that point of contact, etc. I am not going to use anyones. I have worked hard in this business for many, many years and brag on my own accomplishments. Why would I want to use someone elses? Before jumping down someones throat you need to be sure you know all the facts, which you clearly didn't.
can't read too well can you?
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I think you might want to read up on...nm
Read this. sm
Check your account settings as something may have changed. You need to authenticate to your outgoing/SMTP server in order to relay mail through it in your POP account properties in Outlook. Presuming this is the same ISP for POP and SMTP, usually it's fine to tell it to use the same settings (POP credentials) for your authentication. Check with your ISP if you can't make it work.
The above is from this site. http://forums.mcafeehelp.com/viewtopic.php?t=85600
If you Google the error code, lots of hits come up with explanations.
You must not have read
their Yahoo Health Groups page, which states:
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Everyone Please Read This
Hi - I'm Dianne from Austin, Texas, and being an RN for 20 years and a teacher for seven, decided to order an online MT course to change professions. So I paid my $1300 to The VLC and was promised materials within 10 business days. I began using the online resouces to study and take the tests and exams, as the materials never materialized. I passed the terminology, A & P, and pharmacology sections with a 98 average. But then I could go no farther without the foot-pedal and CDs. So I began complaining more loudly, as I've taken off of work to finish the course. Getting no response except 'it's in the mail,' I demanded to speak to an administrator and posted my frustration on their discussion forum. The next day - today, they have blocked my email, removed my posting and access to the forum, and have wiped out all of my grades from their website. So I'm out the $1300 as well as about 160 hours of studying. I've reported them to everyone I can think of, but need advice. What would you do?
Please Help!!!
If you are looking for a job -- please read
Please do not post any job-wanted posts, period.
If you are looking for a position as an employee or as an IC, there are countless jobs listed on our free Job Seekers board. If you would like, you can post your resume for free on our resume bank for potential employers to peruse.
If you wish to ask about a specific company, please do so -- on the Company board.
If you have any questions about this, please email myself or the Administrator.
Goldbird
...and if YOU dn't like it...don't read it!
Equally simple solution. This board is a pressure release for many MTs. Why do you have to be so petty and mean? Just don't respond if it offends you!
I read below about
your web sites . . . did you design them yourself? I would love to see the items you make, if you don't mind giving the address(es). I wish you all the best. Good luck with the selling, and most of all, peace and happiness for you!
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