Am I loosing it?

Okay I work from home for a small company, 4 yrs now.  When I first started, I could really bust out the lines.  It kind of reminds me of a sewing factory.  They will “have me on pockets and then switch me to collars!”  Meaning when you start making production they switch you.  Great people to work for but now I find I can hardly stay awake to do the job.  I do have insomnia so that does not help.  Will work 10-6 and sometime have to take a break.  In a typical day I will not to sleep until about 3 sometimes 4 in the morning but then sleep until 9:30 sometimes 9:55 and then get up and work.  I know that is ridiculous.  I am have serious OCD when it comes to my desk set up.  If things are out of line I have to have them straight or I can’t get comfortable.  Like if a book or a piece of paper is sitting sideways, I will feel like I am leaning or sitting cockeyed, to the point that it actually causes muscle strain.  My office walls are a lime green or pistachio color.  So much for that signifying Money!  I am at the point now that I think it is the color and the lighting.  It causes such a strain on my eyes.  Plus I three different accounts use different accounts using different fonts.  Mainly courier and then Arial.  The courier will be so faint and then boom there is the bold huge Arial.  I am working on changing jobs because I have absolutely no benefits with this company.  I also work jobs on the side when local physicians of hospitals need someone to catch them up.  Usually this is on my days off.   I find myself struggling to 500 lines in an 8 hour day, yet I can work these extra jobs, no matter if I go in or work at home and I can bust out 1300+ in anywhere from 5-7 hours.  I have been doing this 24 years so this absolutely makes no sense to me.  Some days I will type 8 hrs at home and then go in and do 8 hours at hospital, clearing out over 2 hours of dictation at a time.  I have decided that it is all in my mind.  I love doing ESL doctors but the ones I type for, one yawns all of the time and I am the only one that does him and the others have something wrong with their recording system and there are always areas of static and you have to back up and do it again and finally it will come through.  Am I just loosing it or what?  All psychological?  One week I took vacation which I did not get paid for, only to go to another facility and work!  Big difference in a 8.5 cpl paycheck and a 15 cpl check!  I’ve decided I’d rather be the “traveling transcripitionist”.  Funny thing is I can sit at this same computer and type up until 3 a.m. on the second jobs and be wide awake, but let me sign on to my company and it’s sleeping beauty all over again!  So am I loosing it.  Maybe its because I know I have no benefits and I’m getting nowhere?

• Am I loosing it? - pdqtrans
  • You're not losing it, you're burned out on your main job. - Mo
  • Yes, you're LOOSING it. - nm
    • I feel left out! Nobody picked on my errant comma that shoulda been a semi colon. - Mo
      • don't feel left out.... - semicolon is one word!
        • Sweet. Someone caught it ;-) - Mo
    • i wish my clothes were loose...i guess they would be if i would - lose the fat ! no msg

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