battle for your soul
Posted By: chain smoker on 2008-12-05
In Reply to: Yes, i am hopeless. I've tried too many times to quit - Backwards typist
I finally had to pretend God and the devil were fighting it out for my soul. So I wasn't standing up to the cigarettes, but the devil himself. God won. A little melodramatic, but withdrawal is pretty dramatic.
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My battle with public schools
I will try not to get to long-winded here, but I wanted to let you know my experience with public schools. My youngest of 3 boys has extreme expressive language delay. His first word was at 4.5 and was Mama. No autism, no physical reasons. In every other aspect, he was normal.
After he was no longer eligible for state intervention after 3 years of age, we paid for private speech therapy but that was killing us and our insurance did not cover it. So we decided to enroll him in the preschool 4 year old program the following year.
It was a nightmare two weeks experience. The principal of the school would not let parents walk their kids to class. I was expected to bring my 4 year old nonverbal scared child to the front door and some teacher would escort him. In that two weeks, we had many meetings trying to resolve the problems. In addition, my son began to act out in extreme ways, peeing, screaming, hitting, kicking. It was not normal for him at all.
Finally, that Friday of the second week, it all came to an head for me. My son was screaming and hiding under the steering wheel that morning. I was crying. It had been a nightmare dealing with an insane school bureaucracy to get help, my husband being no help and saying we just needed to give it more time, and my little formerly sweet son acting out so savagely.
I decided that was it. He was only 4 for goodness sake. I went in to remove him from school. I was met in the office (the only place parents could go in the building - I swear this is true!) by the principal and told that I was to leave my child there, leave, or she would call the police!
This woman was something else. She refused to listen to any of my concerns, and refused at all to let me go into the classroom! I literally begged in tears in her office to **allow** me to go to my son's class to help so I could see what was going on. Parents were not allowed to help out in school unless on special days, like field day.
A shouting match ensued - and I mean my mama bear came roaring out. My son was there with me, clinging to my leg for all he was worth, listening to the principal and I scream at each other. Because the principal literally screamed at me back. It was without a doubt one of the worst experiences in my life. Teachers came running to see what was going on...my son's teacher was there trying to calm me down. I left that building with my son and have never been back.
My husband came racing home from work, I was so hysterical when I called, fearing they would take our child away from us. There were phone calls the next couple days from the school superintendent - Oh, we're so sorry. She's a new principal. She will be talked to about this. Come back, etc.
By that time, I was in battle fatigue and scared to death of my child being taken away. Fast forward now 5 years...He is talking up a storm, reading, very good in math, and is back to his sweet and gentle self. We chose homeschooling. We didn't want to really but couldn't afford private schools.
We got swept up in a great co-op that has become our pseudo-school. He takes classes there and has made very good friends. The kids were all very accepting of him from the first and did not tease at all about his speech. Last year, at graduation ceremonies, he read a booklet so clear and perfectly pronounced. One of the mom's put her arm around me because she knew what a long journey it has been for him.
So, that's my story. Sorry so long. For my other two sons, my eldest is in high school public school. My middle son couldn't stand being in school with his younger brother having so much fun in co-op and we homeschool him too.
This could be a life long battle about who gets what--sm
I say---exhume the body of the son, creamate both the son and Anna Nicole, share the ashes with anyone who wants a piece of her and the boy. Argument over.
jmo
If can live together as friends, yes. If home is battle
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agree. I was rased in a battle zone -
it scared the crap out of me and it was daily. To this day, I aim to please (him) to keep the peace, and never achknowlede what I might want. If there is an argument - I end up doing it like my parents...poorly.
When my parents finally split, I remember life being calm and I didn't live in fear anymore.
sad we have to battle the school system that we pay for, but has she been tested for dyslexia? sm
sounds like a repeat of my daughter who is now in 5th grade and it has been a battle every since. in fact, i posted message on here few months ago regarding her. she also has dyslexia, which is quite common and sounds like your daughter may have too. we had it in our family so i knew she had it given her symptoms. school says they can't test til 3rd grade. hello, who can catch up when they are that far behind? i fought it enough i finally got someone to say, we can test earlier if the parents' request it. so they did and it has helped her tremendously til we moved this year and now she gets a "video" dyslexia class that sux and doesn't help. i am not sure how to continue battling it from this point. at her prior school though she went from failing to A's and B's with dyslexia help and extra time on assignments, verbal reading, etc. with her IEP.
I agree. I posted below about living in the battle zone -
If my parents would have had counseling, I might have been given a better example of how to disagree constructively and carried that forward in my life. Counseling is for getting through anything, you name it. Divorce too.
(your kids might need a place to voice themselves other than you, too.)
I think soul..
food cookers like their shade slow cooked with extra gravy!!!(lamp) LOL
God keep her little soul...sm
I have a 3-year-old daughter, just a couple months younger than Caylee Anthony. This story has shaken me from the very start. I just cannot understand. My life would be over if something happened to my daughter. I'm sure the grief would kill me. I hope and pray that she is with God now and that her family, the ones who loved her, that is, can have some peace and healing. So incredibly sad.
Wise ol' soul
I really do, especially around this time of year. But, I ws lucky to have him as long as i did. 
And, Silver has always been a wise ol' soul. He is a great comfort. But, unfortunately Silver has cancer and is getting really thin. So, I think he will be with my husband before too long.
That picture was taken a few years ago.
soul mate
I am not sure what your definition of a soul mate is or your definition of a good husband, but when you complain about your husband not being helpful enough to you, it sounds like you want to hire a nanny.
You are a good soul to care for her
It sounds like no one has cared for her in quite some time. I believe kennel cough is easily treatable and hopefully the other things will be too. She must be going through a rough time with all that going on and adjusting to her new home. I hope she brings you much joy and happiness !
My stepmom, rest her soul
used to love to have my child visit (we are talking in 60s/70s and so) as did her mother who visited them quite a bit. She always talked about how my son loved to be around her mother, her mother quilted, broke the beans in the summer as did my son right along with them. The stepmom only in say 14 years or so (they first took him home with them, my dad and his wife when my son less than 6 months old) that my son acted out on her- at a grocery when she had bought him something and he wanted more. She was mortified that he would have done this. She said he never did this again as he got his privilges taken away. The kids now are certainly in a different place then when mine growing up and I think the Man above for allowing me to raise my children then, not now.
poor troubled soul?!
Hopefully, the good Lord will see to it that this "poor troubled soul" gets what he rightfully deserves for killing and quickly! Instead bless the innocents that happened to get in this idiot's way!
bless your soul....thanks for watching our for defensless friends.
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no, abortion is taking a HUMAN life with a soul.
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I LOVED Bobby Sherman and David Soul, sm
Now, it's Zac Efron. Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm WAYYYYY too old, but he is such a cutie, and I don't think I'm the only mom that thinks that way - thank heaven's he's 21..
I prefer Danny. He's got soul, unlike Adam.
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Trulyl inspiring. What you have both found your soul-mates for life. For most,
and I can tell you from experience and experience of friends and family, a lot of problems in marriage is caused by selfishness. I'm saying a lot, not all problems.
If you both give selflessly (thus, having to work at it), then you can have a great marriage.
Some marriages come naturally (like yours) and others not so natural. Two people brought together with different needs and wants and desires and we must let them "be" and give a lot of ourselves, and them to us, and then your marriage can be wonderful.
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