That's so fascinating to me. I love reading about ND experiences.

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thoughout her life. You were together for many years and you gave her a wonderful life. Please try to always remember that.   A woman who cleaned for my mom cleaned my apartment once and when I showed her a dog collar that I have that my darling Westie wore I broke down. This woman knew my Westie and loved her, too. I cried and said I had some feelings of guilt that I was dealing with. This wonderful woman said something to me that might help you now. She said

"Just think of the life you gave her.  Now think of the life she might have had if she had fallen into the hands of someone who did not love her."  That really helped me a lot. I hope in time it will help you, too. God Bless you.

My best friend just returned from a trip back home by herself. There, she met up with her high school sweetheart - 20 years later. His mom and her mom are best friends and they were both there for a funeral.  She cried her eyes out at lunch today.
She learned while on her trip back home that the love of her life was divorced, has 3 kids - his wife left him for another man. My friend is married with 2 children.
To make a long story short, my friend is a true lady. She told him all about her life here and he just listened. They were near water (a gorgeous beach) on the docks and it was just the 2 of them and he began saying things to her that made her so sad. He went on and on about how he never stopped loving her and would look at her and say, "you are just as gorgeous as you were back in high school."  She said she would just laugh and tell him he was crazy.  She said she saw him on and off during the trip because she "had" to. They have families that are very close.  Every time he would see her he would give her a big hug and call her gorgeous.  She said the night before she left they were on his mother's porch swinging, eating ice cream and he cried like a baby. She cried. Nothing inappropriate happened between them.  She said it was a connection none like she had ever, ever experienced before.  She said that he made her promise that if anything were to ever happen between she and her husband that she would come back and be with him. He promised that he would wait for her, even if she were 80 years old.  My friend cried and cried.  He cried and cried.

I cried and cried.  I know this lady's husband.  The have a good relationship.  But she and I both know that we did not marry our soul mates.  I don't even know where mine is (we broke up many moons ago), but I know he was the one for me.  There was no infedelity to this story at all. I believe her.  They lost contact when she went away to college, moved on, and that was it.  She would talk about him periodically with me, but nothing real serious.

I don't know how many women (I sure haven't) met up with old flames or lost soul mates and have the experience she has.  She is a Christian and says that if she didn't love Jesus, something would have happened between them. She was able to use her love of God to witness to this man (who isn't a Christian).  She said that she wouldn't be able to live with herself if something happened between them and that his soul was more important to her than her selfish desires.

I commended her for that.  I don't know how many women in her position would have been as strong.  She cried so hard when she was telling me this story. Lunch lasted 4 hours!! I'm glad I was off today. Anyway, it just has me thinking about my ilfe, too, as a married mom and wife. My husband is the most unemotional, unaffectionate, doesn't-believe-in-soul mates-kind-of-guy. I can't talk with him about these kinds of things.  I just wish he were mine OR I was with mine.......

And I'm even sorrier that your children have not had fathers who are caring and active in their lives.

But, as I said in my previous post, I had observed the way my husband treated animals - very caring, lots of patience and tolerance. I think the way that people treat animals is a great indicator of what kind of person they really are.

You're right, children can put a great strain on a marriage, especially if there are already problems with the relationship. My husband and I separated when our son was about 16 months old, but we got back together a few months later - primarily for the sake of our son, but over the years we have worked out our marital problems as well.

Perhaps I painted too much of a rosy picture. But the fact is, my husband is a good father, and I have always loved that about him, even when he and I weren't getting along. And having a child has kept us together through some pretty rough times.

I'm not kidding as I tell you all about these happenings.

My husband's mother died Christmas Eve in 1980. 14 years ago we moved into our "new" house and the scent of patcholli permated the house for weeks (his mother's favorite scent). Four years ago, we were having a family shindig in our garage and talking about his mother when the lights went out.  Nobody was near the light switch and when I went over, the switch was in the off position.

In 2000, my mother died (how I miss her), but in January. Anyway, all day, the bell she used to ring for me to come help her rang off and on for hours. I kept running out to the living room to see if it was on TV. It wasn't.

My plastic jug of Tide also fell off the shelf iin the laundry room about 2 hours after this. There was no one around but me when this happened and I was busy working. (My laundry room is right outside my computer room).

Tonight, my husband went to take his meds as we were sitting at the kitchen table after eating. His one medicine disappeared. We searched high and low for it around the table and where he keeps his meds to no avail. So I told him to take his other meds and sooner or later his Toprol would show up. If not, we would get another Rx tomorrow. Well, when he went to the sink for his water, there on the counter was his Toprol. I'm talking 15 feet away from the table we were sitting at. Neither of us got up from the table.

Do you think our mothers are back for Christmas again?  I would love to have them around for Christmas. I'm not afraid if it is them, and I'm still not afraid if it is not them and I would love to acknowledge that I know it's them, but how would I do that? (Am I strange?).

I just had to share these strange events with everyone.  Please don't flame me if you don't believe, but I do. Thank you for listening.

My doc wants me to take simvastatin for sligthtly high cholesterol.  Sounded okay to me, til I went online and read lots of horror stories about it, up to and including the "statin shuffle" people describe.  I DONT want to take something that is going to affect my neurological system adversely!

Do any of you take it?  What are your experiences?  Good or bad?  What side-effects did it give you?

We used to have a rottie (died last year) and they have the same stigma attached to them.  We were actually denied homeowners insurance with many different companies because we owned a rottie.  The funny thing is, he was the biggest sweet dog you ever met, a giant teddy bear.  Our chocolate lab was 100 times more likely to be aggressive/hurt someone, but of course they don't care about chocolate labs. 

That said, I've only known a few pits and they were pretty mean, but I blame that on the owners in those cases because they pretty much wanted a mean, protective dog.  Because of my experiencw ith my rottie though, I don't agree with laws or rules against certain breeds of dogs because I think they are BS.  Dogs should be judged on an individual basis ONLY.

I have two daughters currently undergoing orthodontia treatment and their docs (brothers) either call us that night to see how they are feeling after their treatment or send a personal note.  Just very friendly, caring orthodontists.  They also have an office full of pretty young ladies and are both married with a bunch of kids and lovely wives.  They are just very nice guys.

Could be that your orthodontist is just trying to be a nice guy.   Don't embarrass yourself by reading too much into what could be an innocent effort to make your treatment time more enjoyable. 

"Cross" by James Patterson, next on my stack of 10 new books is "I Heard That song before by Mary Higgins Clark.  I'm an avid reader - can you tell??

it sounds like maybe he just wants to stay married so he can keep you under his thumb.  I'm sure it's better for him financially if you stay together and he has someone to do the household chores as well.  As for asking for sex via email, that is creepy.  But, I would still wonder whether he is getting somewhere else.  I think men would still continue to ask, just on the off-chance that you actually would say yes, but get it somewhere else, too.  I'd be afraid of what he could bring home.  As for the kids, I agree with the other posters.  The kids will pick up on this, but sadly enough, they will grow up believing it's a normal relationship when it's not, thus the generation-after-generation epic of divorce.  That's just my opinion, though, and I'm certainly not an expert.

Now, back to you, I'm sorry that you're not getting any with someone who loves and respects you.  So often, it is just assumed that the woman doesn't need/desire intimacy, when in all honesty women crave that intimacy even more than men.  It's not necessarily the physical aspect of the intimacy that women crave, but rather the emotional.  The fact that he asks for it so bluntly via email on a daily basis is his way of degrading you.  Don't let it go on any longer.  I would be headed straight to the divorce lawyer's office.  Many women have been through divorce and made it through okay.  You're children will support you once they see how much happier you are without him.  Good luck to you. 

I'm currently reading a great book on Einstein.  It was published in 2007, after all of his papers finally became public.  Author is Walter Isaacson, and it's called:  EINSTEIN - HIS LIFE AND UNIVERSE.  He also wrote BENJAMIN FRANKLIN - AN AMERICAN LIFE, which I may read next.  Funny how as one gets older, fiction often is less interesting than real life. 

Many, many people were involved in getting the details of Einstein's life and the science right, and even HS science teachers were brought in to bring the scientific explanations down to high school level so we'd all have a chance of understanding it.  It's 551 pages long, plus an additional 125 pages of credits!  It starts out with a few pages describing the "main characters" in the book.  I'm just getting started, but I can tell it's going to be fascinating. 

My heart goes out to you.  You have been through a lot of anguish.  I think the fact that you are trying the best that you can shows that you are going to make it through this. 

I agree that at first your husband should be the one to set limits, but there is nothing wrong with watching him and learning from him, so that you can take baby steps to establish limits (of course these should be abided by both parents) too.  Not only for your daughter's sake, but for your sake too.  She needs to respect you too.

Good luck.  I hope the best for you and your family.

I love to read. Anything and everything.

But!

I lost my reading muse awhile back and can't seem to find it.

And!

When I had it I almost read 24/7.

Nora Roberts/JD. Robb, Bea Small, Linda Howard, Karen Marie Moning, Janet Chapman, Kristin Hannah *old books*, and many, many more.

So, what you're reading, what you've read and what you want to read.